October 26th 2025

This bittersweet feeling ain't fading away soon, but I still decided to write. I want to lay out my love to you.

Time flied away when it's fueled with your happiness, yesterday flowed like a dream. Dream of the happiest fragments.

The moment Jaejoong finally stepped out, it was not only the first time my eyes got to capture him as a real sight, but it's also the moment I knew that all of the waiting and love will eventually get answered.

Dream and reality crossed. They met.

Jaejoong is still Jaejoong in my mind and from my heart. Not frozen in time, even with changes to the eyes, but when that voice rose, when that wit came out, I could break down, "This is Jaejoong."

25/10/2025, the present me, and the child within whose first love belongs to DBSK, finally got to live a part of that grand dream, and that teenager who used to doom herself in despair finally got to express that gratitude.

It wouldn't suit to say I want to grow old with Jaejoong.

I will grow alongside with Jaejoong getting more seasoned in this life.

Thank you. See you again.

ARCHIVED SECTION

December 31st 2024

A wish for 2025, every family and person to have food on the table and a real smile on their face.

To embrace my identity, but constantly try to blend in with others.

To sit by the same old, rusty metal window frame and stare blankly at the vast but vacant sky.

To want a quiet life but can not stop the overabundant amount of thinking and criticising everything that exists.

To want a relationship but can not stop finding the bad in people.

To feel sufficient but always feel jealous.

To want to know more but to be bothered by not knowing enough.

To be so sure that I am better than everyone but to realise that I am worse than everything on earth.

Maybe on a day in my life, suddenly I will get to pick only one side, but for now, I will continue switching sides as a part of my nature. It is never a wrong thing to switch sides if you think about it. The world itself is a paradox. Nothing correct could stay correct and nothing false could stay false. My father always complains that I constantly choose to lie on the floor while still having a goddamn comfortable mattress with a clean blanket for my own. He says that I must be aware of the idea that I would get a pair of damaged lungs if my back kept touching the cold floor like that. But father is a smoker, and he consumes alcohol like water. I appreciate his effort to be a proper parent who cares about his child's health, but I would find it funny that he has never been a role model himself. The same goes for my mother, who constantly tells me to have good manners but still shouts in my face whenever a conflict happens.

Again, no matter who I might become, must the core remains with the moral principles.

It's never a shame to be a good person. No matter how much of a tragedy has life thrown at you, don't become your most sorrowful tragedy of losing your goodness.

I L Y

August 11th 2024

My family had a trip to the beach with my mother's colleagues, I had chosen to stay at home because most of the time, beach trips are just the same. Alone, I woke up at around 4am becaust that's when they did to go prepare. I could've slept until 6 or so but I couldn't go back to sleep. So I did some exercises and stretchings. For breakfast I ate a big dumpling, then I went preparing for lunch, I made mixed rice dish with beans, carrot, fried egg and sausage.

But the most important thing to be announced is:

A NEW VIDEO IS GOING TO BE DROPPED SOON

I did everything by myself. Writing the script, illustrating, editing, recording.

Ok. That's all.

My Youtube channel is in the "About" section.

Pi-out V

August 13th 2024

December 27th 2024

I have abandoned this site for a while, probably because university has been an energy drainer and that I have been buried in the goddamn deadlines and exercises. Still, my results and GPA are all decent so far.

Next year is 2025, and I cannot wrap my head around the fact that I will turn 19 at the late of it.

But anyway, I will probably make a year's evaluation mini essay soon. That should be fun, hopefully.

I'm reading the book 'All quiet on the western front', and one goal is to finish it before the new year arrives, and I'm not pulling the lunar year excuse.

December 29th 2024

Perhaps what makes this Christmas feel more like a holiday this year, even for a non-Christian like me, is that I have acted like a Santa Claus, in a way.

It was not that much, but I ain't going to downplay it because I understand the value of money. I donated money to a Gazan family, the amount when you convert it to the currency of US dollar was roughly $6, but I could see many donating too, a good thing. Along with that, I made a donation of 200.000 VND to an organisation that provides meals for unprivileged children with cancer, it was for their Christmas campaign. Everyone deserves a holiday, don't they?

Life is good when I give the money to my folks out there, and receive a 'thank you'.

February 20th 20255

Thank you, it was a pleasure participating in the "Japan-ASEAN Online Program Towards SDGs"

February 26th 2025

I completely abandoned my plan to write a 2024 review. But anyway, life is not to be evaluated anyway, because when we live, it's different each time.

I love studying like uncannily. And these days I'm paying more attention to the way I dress, I refuse to go a day around college without serving. My fashion = mix of punk?

Speaking of punk. Imagine telling Sid Vicious to buy a can of coke at a vending machine.

Imagine telling Sid Vicious that he was an industrial plant.

But then again, who am I to judge.

I am not going to say that I hate Sid Vicious when like, that man probably did not know what he was doing most of the time.

The media needs to stop portraying Sid Vicious like an icon. HE WAS NOT.

I'm loving MCR again like that band just lives in my head and casually emerges back after an amount of time.